I went into the doctor last week becasue she wanted to do something about me NOT having periods. I have not had one since June 2010. She wanted to put me back on birth control to force me to have a period. But before I could go on it I needed a blood test. Although pregnancy was basically impossible, since I have pcos, hypothyroidism, a history of cervical cancer, and anovulatory amenorrhea. But...guess what! Got the call the next day. hCg was 41...DEF POSITIVE. I was OVERRRRRR THE MOON. Barry and I both were thrilled to finalllllly become parents, just when it seemed impossible. Our miracle baby!

Went in Monday to get hcg checked again to make sure it was rising....came back LESS THAN 1.

Was it a lab mistake, was it a miscarriage, was it a chemical pregnancy?

This is the worst news I have ever heard. I was already soooo in love with the possible seed on my belly. He or she was my miracle. My everything within just a few short days!

There are noooo words to describe the feeling. The pain. The sadness. The madness. Will I ever heal?

I'm so sorry to hear that

Keep your chin up because you have to believe that miracles can still happen.

You'll be in my prayers.

Oh sweetheart.

I don't know what to really say except for you to keep your chin up and remember, that miracles do happen. You bet the odds this time and you can beat them again and maybe the next time, you'll be able to hold a little baby in your arms.

thanks ladies it is just soooooooo hard. my miracle baby waits for me in the future....while my angel baby is in god's hands. he ahs a plan. but, for now, i jsut want to be mad and find a way to heal.

I'm so sorry, I hope you get your baby soon! You can push through this, there is always a way.

Oh, Ashley, I am so sorry to hear that. Give yourself time to heal, but also know that it won't be healthy to stay upset for a long time. Don't ever give up hope. Like you said, there is a plan, and it's wonderful, but it may be upside down or the opposite of what you would think. I'll keep you guys in my prayers. Hang in there!