I hope you can come to a decision which is right for you and your boyfriend, and I'm sorry to hear about your situation. It must be tough! If only life was full of yes or no answers for everything.
All the best for figuring out what to do, I know it must be hard on you. Having a boyfriend who is going to be there and love you and your children (assuming you two are serious) might not be such a bad thing, though. I totally see your confudion in this, I just hope you can be at peace with what you choose to do.
All the best
