I know this is my 3rd post in 1 night and I'm sorry, but everyone is asleep and I need to get this off my chest. You don't have to read of respond.

My sister's anniversary of her death was 1st of September. She would of been 40 on the 25th of August and I miss her so much! I can't believe it's been 4 years since she passed, it seems like yesterday and the wound is still just as deep now as it was the day we lost her. That image of seeing her that sick haunts me, especially around this time of the year. I'm bawling as I type this so please excuse any spelling errors I can't see well.
I don't know how anyone gets over the loss of a sibling. But the thing that really hurts is it seems like no one cares but me. I know my mum cares, I felt like a little girl laying in her lap crying all day talking about her, my mum was just upset. My brother forgot about it this year, my husband forgot, her kids don't remember her, and my BIL (her widow) just played it off like it was no big deal. My husband forgot and I've been mentioning it to him for weeks now. It's just so hard! She was such an amazing person and everyone is acting like they don't even care.
I've never felt so alone in my life. My sister was my everything. She was always there for me being my big sister and she's not here anymore obviously and it hurts like hell. There are times I want to ring her and talk to her but I can't. It hurts that she never got to meet my youngest 2 kids or she's not going to be able to meet this baby.
Ava was so sweet though, she wrote a letter to my sister that she wanted to take to her grave site that she read to her. It was adorable. I see so much of her in Ava, Lola and Charlotte. Charlotte is the spitting image of her.

Sorry I'm just sad and upset and I woke Luca up with me crying, so I'm going to log off now. Lucky you, my rant would of been much much longer!

Awh, Hattie! *Hugs* to you.

I know its hard. My Nan died last July after a 10month battle with cancer and I still cry myself to sleep at night over it. I miss her so much, and my heart just aches. I miss her tremendously.

All I can say, is someday, maybe not in the near future, but you will be able to think of your sister without seeing the pain. You'll see the memories you've made together. You may laugh, or smile or even cry. But that's okay. Because you'll know, she will always be proud of you. No matter what.

So sorry to hear that. How cool that one of your girls looks so much like her! I imagine as all yours grow up, you'll be able to tell them funny stories about her and how they remind you of her. Also, I imagine that your mom does miss her as much or more than you, but maybe she's trying to be strong for you, or not make you feel bad or something. And her widower is probably just not showing his true emotions and may not want to talk about it. In general, men do well to remember a birthday or their own anniversary, but certainly not others' anniversaries, much less death dates. emily had some good points. And, I completely believe that you will see her again. I hope that thought helps and gives you some comfort. Yes, hugs to you!

I can feel your pain and true fully I don't know how you lived another second when she passed. Me and lazlow ( my sister)are so close I can't even picture what I'd do the next second if she ever died. On sept the 9 it would be a year that my aunt passed away. She was my ma's best friend and ma is still lost without her. My aunts daughter just turned 16 on sept 1st. And her son will be 3 in jan. It's sad that he won't really know his mum. She died of lung cancer. Now my grandpa is really sick with a rare form of cancer, he might not make it much longer . Him and my grandma have been married for 44 years so she wont stay long after he's gone. They buried their son 17 years ago. My ma lost her brother, best friend, soon to be her dad and probably her mum. I wonder how long she will mange to stay? It's very hard. How can you watch some one die? And suffer knowing that you can't do anything to help them? My aunt was in my life for 18 years I can't just let her go,. we are grandpas little girls lol, so it will be hard when he's gone.
Just stay strong they didn't forget everyone has their own views on topics like this and there own way of dealing with such matters.

Thank you guys for replying! Your comments made me cry! I'm feeling a little better today.

Emily- it's hard. It honestly does get easier but it never gets easy. I'm typically okay until this time of the year and that's when all those emotions come flowing back like it was yesterday!
I'm sorry for the loss of your grandmother! Can I ask what cancer she passed away from? My sister lost her life to breast cancer!

Alisamber- I love that Charlotte looks just like her! My sister was always the pretty girl in her teens (I don't know about before that because I wasn't alive yet! ) so hopefully my little girl will be too! I know my mum misses her.I didn't think about her hiding her emotions but that's my mum for you! Even though I'm 27 she still thinks she has to hold it together for me!

Unique-names- I'm a mum myself, I couldn't just fall of the face of the earth once my sister passed away as much as I wanted to. I had my kids who I had to take care of. They (the ones a live) were too young to understand what happened besides Ava. She was 7 at the time. Ava was really upset about it, she still gets upset time to time over it. I can't imagine how your cousins feel loosing their mum at such a young age! I don't think I could of handled that growing up.
I'm sorry for your mum for all the losses! It's harder then hell to deal with. And I'm sorry for your grandfather! I hope for the best for your grandfather and a miracle happens!
As for watching them be sick, you know how hard it is. Those images of them being that sick and the feeling you feel watching them slowly leave you, never goes away. I'm crying typing this. With my sister I kept just telling myself she'd be in less pain once she leaves..