To Susie, I am a firm believer in God and grew up that way. I'm currently having an issue with why God would let this happen to me but I know it's his plan and that he knows what he is doing. It's just rough.

To Maria, thank you so much.



To MrsHoward, I completely understand. This was my first child also. I am not married yet.. but I will be shortly. (a few days) I went through serious grief and worried because we are not technically married so he can just leave and he has the right to leave. Amazingly, I know even more now that this is the man for me because some of the first things he did was cry, and then plan out our future together. I'm trying not to wrap myself into anything I can find, no offense to you grieving is finding your own way of comfort, if I even see a baby right now I think I die crying.


To Caring, I completely understand. I was seven weeks along and was really starting to feel attached. My Fiancee was always talking to our child and everything he could do to help. He was very very emotionally attached as well. This is really hard and I have been shutting myself out but thats from my depression. Give me some time I will be open again. I am so glad you were able to conceive and have your gorgeous daughter. Be a great mother like I figure you are. I'm afraid to make love right now because I hurt something so precious to me. Give me some time, once again, and I will be fine.


To Selene, I agree with you. My baby is my guardian angel. I love my guardian angel with all my heart.




To everyone(even those above), I think what made it worse was while I was sitting in the ER they had a girl that came in right after me. She was 12 years old, 13 weeks pregnant, completely drunk out of her mind, and they thought she was having a miscarriage. When they confirmed I had lost my child and I laid there crying I looked at this girl.."mom".. and she smiled saying that was what she wanted. I have never been so angry, so upset, so frustrated with someone that I just yelled at her. I told her how there were so many people in this world who cant conceive and have a child, who have to go through what I was going through and they and myself want a child and would give away their hearts to have one, or keep their child. I told her how ignorant she was and that I wanted her to die because she never deserved to be a mother and she never deserved to have such a precious miracle in her. I might of gone overboard but her mother stood up walked over to me and gave me a hug and told me I was absolutely right. I had three of the nurses come in and told me I was right and told that girl how she needed to grow up and realize her "adult decisions" cost her to be pregnant and she was chosen to be a mother. It hurt so much, because for the short time I was pregnant, not once did I eat anything with caffeine, not once did I have ANYTHING bad for my child. But that CHILD had the nerve to drank alcohol to the point she was DRUNK. Not to mention, by time they released me she was told her child was not dead and she wasn't going to have a miscarriage... that her child was as normal as she was going to get. She told them she was going to do it again and again till that baby died. Why is it the people who want it, can't have it.. but the people who don't want it, DON'T DESERVE IT, get it. It's just not right.



Sorry for my rant but I am just so, frustratedangryhurtupset.