Ur not a terribble mother u only need professional help, what ever is bothering you its a spiritual thing you need to deal with the fact that you made an abortion bcos it was the right choice, stop blaming yourself over the past and face the future with the clean mind God has forgiven you. Stop listening to negative voices, no one is perfect we all make mistakes but you have to forgive urself first, then u'll be able to love ur kids

Goodluck

hya I know this thread hasn't been active for a while but I also wanted to share my story.

I have been brought up by my dad more than anyone to be honest. My mum left when I was 14. Well when I say left I mean she would stay at my nan's at night and come to Dad's house, where she could consume unmentionable amounts of alcohol and hurl abuse at us at any given chance. there's three of us kids, I have two older brothers and not one of us have forgivven what she's done to us. Honestly she must be the worst parent. And I'm not even exagerating. Honestly you sound similar sorry, but you are selfish and she is possibly THE most selfish person i have met. Recently she moved in, so I moved out. To an even worse house share with a psycho. Now I'm stuck. And yes maybe wrongly I blame my mum. In turn I can't take her anymore so I lash back out at her too now. Being brought up on arguments and ause it's all I know, if I'm hurt I argue and on many occassions me and John (my baby to be's daddy) have nearly split up. It hurts to the core knowing me nor him want my mum to be apart of our babies life when it's here.

My advise is to get help. Seriously. You need a reality check, and quick. You are hurting your kids more than even you know. If their dad treats them right then go away for a while, get help and grow up. You may be suffering from depression and that neds to be acknowledged. You've done more than most already by admitting there's a problem. So just find the strength to do the best for your children. Believe me in a few years or when they are properly starting their adult life, with marriage, with children, then you'll regret not being a better mother.
Please just do the best for your children, they deserve more from you so get some help. It sounds to me like you are suffering from depression. I admit I'm no doctor, but I suffer from depression every once in a while, and have a problem due to stress and anxiety brought on by my mother. Please do more for them little angels by doing something for yourself.
They deserve your love, and yes you deserve their love. Your their mum and they need you.
Good luck hunni, and sorry to be harsh but really I do hope everything works out just fine for you and your family. Children are a persons greatest gift, and if you let them they could complete you rather than tear you apart. Good luck hun, luff Lauren xxxx

ashleym09 wrote:
[quote]My Mom left me and my two sisters and I hate her for it. She was still around and got us on the weekends but everything was about her and still is. We grew up being her parent instead of her being ours. Now she is doing the same thing to my little sister and brother she had after she divorced my dad....Suck it up and stop being so selfish...You have babies to care for and love its not about you anymore...You should have closed your legs while you were ahead of yourself...sorry to be so blunt and rude but seriously those babies need you more than you need them....I cant believe people sometimes...you have beautiful healthy children and you just want to leave them?? I couldnt imagine not being with my daughter every single day its a scary thought....they need you!!!!!!![/quote

[color=#FF0000]I completely agree with you. Girl, you slammed those legs open, now take care of what came out. I was 19 when I got pregnant too but everyday I see my daughter my heart melts.You should have considered putting them up for adoption at birth. If you knew you weren't and aren't equiped to be a mom keep em shut down.]It's not fair to just abandon those babies. And one more thing STOP abusing them before you end up in jail with social services on you.Then you when you do decide to grow up and have more kids they'll deem you as an unfit parent[/color].

I think you should let them live with their father, that is the best thing for someone like you to do.

ok my father left when I was really young. It was the worst thing that I thought could have happened. I grew up not having the support I needed. Even if he would have been there just a little I would have been better off. I hate him so much. How could he leave his little girl? I think all the time why can't I have a dad? To this day it is still so hard to think about.

Hello! Kids are a blessing. There are many people that dream of having kids but can't. How could you leave your kids? I know kids can be a pain, but learn to live with it. Honestly reading this makes me soooooooo angry. You are the one that got yourself into this. Now you should be an adult and take care of your kids. Please get yourself help. Poor kids! I'm sorry I just think it is so sad you could even think these things. By the way grow up and take responsibility for you actions! Sorry if that sounded mean, but I'm being honest GET OVER YOURSELF